-
Reasons
People say that everything happens for a reason. How come every time I try to make a change, something keeps pulling me back? I guess that’s life’s way of showing me signs. I feel like everyone around me is moving further and further away from me. I’m like a stranger to them now. Yes, I feel so isolated, so destroyed. So much pain. I just want it to all go away. I just want to be that happy person again. Do I not deserve happiness? Is the world that cruel to me? I’m filling myself with materialistic things to take my mind away from the pain, but in the end,…
-
Update
My head’s been spinning in a circle lately. Seems like that I have to put on a front. Maybe things will get together soon for me. My head is so messed up. I almost need a “rewiring” to get my brain to function correctly again. It’s funny how I can always analyze myself well, but I won’t follow my own advice. I turn to shopping as a getaway. I need to concentrate on my project, and good thing to know that I still get excited thinking about able to work in the movie industry after graduating (hopefully). So I can say that I’m not completely insane.
-
Is It Possible to Quit Life?
Does that even make sense? Maybe it’s the devil trying to lead me astray, but sometimes I feel like I’m just living my life in vain. Is it even worth living? Why are we living for? Sometimes the same ol’ routine just doesn’t seem to advance anywhere. My soul is so tired, I don’t think I can fight any more. Yet part of me still determines to make it. It’s that tiny bit of light that wants to break free. But I ponder on whether I should let it out or just suppress it. I’m too tired, I don’t want to think any more. I’m not a quitter, but I…