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Hollow
Sometimes, I feel so alone, deep inside. Feels like the connection is breaking slowly. Yet I’m still trying to hold on what may never be there. Dreams have turn to nightmares, I wonder when will the end come. The feeling of this emptiness inside, is draining all of me. I feel nothing, but an unknown strong emotion that I cannot describe, cannot release. Because it won’t release. I search for an answer, but only to find more questions. Where should I go? What should I do? Is this my destiny? Is this the fate that I am cursed with? Will there be a day when I can see the light…
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Going Crazy…
I’m really lost… I don’t know what to do… This is driving me crazy… I just want to break down and cry. I miss home so much. I miss him so much. I’m losing it… I’m so afraid that the day will come, where I just break down completely. I’m talking to random people online, getting a laugh, kick, trying to feel better. But at the end of the day, all that shit don’t matter. I just want to be home…
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Anger
I’m so angry some times. I guess because most of the times I feel like it’s just me against the world. Maybe it has something to do with my childhood years. Feels like so much is suppressed inside of me. Like my project, my emotions are about to explode, and that may not be a good sign. *Sighs* My life is too complicated. My mind is driving me crazy. Feels like everything is crashing down on me at once. I pray that God will guide me through this. I need His grace and guidance. I cannot do this alone. I may just need to go back to being anti-social and…