Reasons

People say that everything happens for a reason. How come every time I try to make a change, something keeps pulling me back? I guess that’s life’s way of showing me signs. I feel like everyone around me is moving further and further away from me. I’m like a stranger to them now. Yes, I feel so isolated, so destroyed. So much pain. I just want it to all go away. I just want to be that happy person again. Do I not deserve happiness? Is the world that cruel to me? I’m filling myself with materialistic things to take my mind away from the pain, but in the end, my heart’s still an empty cavity…