I’m really lost… I don’t know what to do… This is driving me crazy… I just want to break down and cry. I miss home so much. I miss him so much. I’m losing it… I’m so afraid that the day will come, where I just break down completely. I’m talking to random people online, getting a laugh, kick, trying to feel better. But at the end of the day, all that shit don’t matter. I just want to be home…