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Going Crazy…
I’m really lost… I don’t know what to do… This is driving me crazy… I just want to break down and cry. I miss home so much. I miss him so much. I’m losing it… I’m so afraid that the day will come, where I just break down completely. I’m talking to random people online, getting a laugh, kick, trying to feel better. But at the end of the day, all that shit don’t matter. I just want to be home…
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Wish Upon a Star…
Well, the year long intense Visual Effects program is finally over. After 3 months of sleepless nights and days, my final project is done. This is a time for celebration, but I can’t help but feel sad… While I understand that certain things aren’t meant to be, it’s hard to keep your head up and a smile on your face. After being hanging solely by a thread for so long, you are bound to fall. I’m at that moment. I have no more strength to keep myself together, to keep my sanity, my pain and my passion. The only thing I can do is to let it go, slowly, so…
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Anger
I’m so angry some times. I guess because most of the times I feel like it’s just me against the world. Maybe it has something to do with my childhood years. Feels like so much is suppressed inside of me. Like my project, my emotions are about to explode, and that may not be a good sign. *Sighs* My life is too complicated. My mind is driving me crazy. Feels like everything is crashing down on me at once. I pray that God will guide me through this. I need His grace and guidance. I cannot do this alone. I may just need to go back to being anti-social and…