Isolation

In my last post I expressed my outlook on friendship, and here is where I will break it down further.

Often times I get attached to people really easily. You can say that I am naïve. If someone is nice to me, and are constantly around me, I get attached to them. It’s a bad thing because most of the times, I just get hurt at the end. To avoid that, I develop a shield around myself: expect the worst, don’t depend on anyone for anything, and always only trust yourself. I’m just very skeptical when it comes to friendship, I don’t really know how to handle friendship. Throughout my years of experience dealing with people, I just find it hard to put my trust in people. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I don’t want to have friends, because I think that friendship is a beautiful thing. However, the majority of people are fake and undependable, it’s hard to filter the grain to find someone that’s real. Same thing goes for relationship. It’s hard to find someone that’s real, loyal, and always have your back no matter what the circumstances. In today’s society, people are brainwashed to think materialistic things are all that matters, and forget the essence of life.

You can say that I’m scared of being close to people. But who isn’t? Who is willing to put themselves out in the open? A fool like me.

The moral of the story is that no matter how hard I try to stay away from my fear, I always end up confronting them, facing them and continuing to get hurt. Regardless of being able to have friends or not, I will always and continue to wear my heart on my sleeves, and give my 100%, even if I am to lose.