Things are improving, at least I think they are. My new computer is coming, arriving possibly Sat or early next week. I can’t wait.

It was a cold day in DecemberI remember it so wellyou captured my whole beingand you left me in a spellyou warmed my heart with passiondesiring all of youyou left me cold in the summerI wish that I only knewbut I… I never knew that you would be the oneto come along and snatch my heart and runaway from me with no explanation whyI never knew what we had would dieall I wanna do is hide awayfrom all the hurt and pain of yesterdaycan’t you see the tears of hurt insideI never knewplease tell me why All the nights you left me cryingkeeping company with my fearsthat some day you’ll…

Lately my life has been an emotional rollercoaster. Things are turning from positive to negative. He is pushing me further and further away. He still loves me, but I don’t know what’s going to Finally happen. I’m so stressed out. I found myself wearing a mask more and more. There are so many things I’m just tired of dealing with, but I have to keep dealing with them. Sometimes I just want to say, fuck it. Fuck everything, fuck life, fuck love, fuck everybody that’s got a problem w/ me. You know, you only can take so much, and when you’re pushed to the limit, it’s likely that you’ll explode.…