I Never Knew
It was a cold day in December
I remember it so well
you captured my whole being
and you left me in a spell
you warmed my heart with passion
desiring all of you
you left me cold in the summer
I wish that I only knew
but I…
I never knew that you would be the one
to come along and snatch my heart and run
away from me with no explanation why
I never knew what we had would die
all I wanna do is hide away
from all the hurt and pain of yesterday
can’t you see the tears of hurt inside
I never knew
please tell me why
All the nights you left me crying
keeping company with my fears
that some day you’ll leave me lonely
and that’s exactly what you did
I swore that I was your baby
the darkest night for you I bare
now that I need you here with me
I call your name and you’re not there
you left me standing
so empty-handed
out in the cold
how was I to know that
my love didn’t matter
my world was shattered
cause you left me here
drowning in tears, oh I
I never knew that you would be the one
to come along and snatch my heart and run
away from me with no explanation why
I never knew what we had would die
all I wanna do is hide away
from all the hurt and pain of yesterday
can’t you see the tears of hurt inside
I never knew
please tell me why
after we made plans
to spend our lives together
I thought what we had
was meant to be forever
oh why did our love have to go away
I don’t know how
I don’t know when
but I know
I’ll never love this way again
This song describes my situation so well. Seems like it was written about me. We met in December, falling apart in Summer. I’m still trying to hang on. Some may call me a fool, but what we have is rare. When I feel in my heart that God is telling me that this is it, this is the One, I will NEVER give up. I haven’t gave up on many/any thing, why should I start now? But it’s so hard, there are so many times that I just wanna cry and say forget it. Forget the struggles and laughters that we shared. Forget all those cold nights, forget all those happiness. I can’t. I don’t have the strength to do so. My strength lies in him. I can’t let go, I won’t let go. The love still exist, but the devil is draining us slowly and painfully. I don’t want the unthinkable to happen. I don’t want to let it end. I don’t want either one of us to fck this up.
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simply_wizzi
*big hugs*
i know how you feel about hanging onto something you know is worth it because it just feels right. and when others ask you “how?” or “why?” sometimes you can’t really answer them because no words can really explain it… it’s just how it is. you know what that person is worth and it’s that person who seems to keep your spirits up and gives you motivation. and a lot of the times, that person gives you or is the reason why you want to become a better person. you just don’t want to let go of what you have or that let that person go out of your life.
there is something there that is still keeping you together. it’s just that right now is one of the many times your relationship will go through rocky times. holding onto that person and Faith, you’ll both get through it.
keep your head up, hun… and don’t give up.
admin
thanks riza。i dont know if things are improving or not. its just there, not going anywhere. i hope progress will start soon. the problem is, im keepin my faith, but he’s not. it’s hard when only one of you is trying hard, giving 100%. but you know, i will never give up. thanks girl
simply_wizzi
awwe.. don’t you hate that? you’re trying your hardest to keep it going strong, but the other person isn’t trying as hard as you… and you don’t wanna think that they don’t care, but you can’t help but think it anyway? i feel like that sometimes when Rick doesn’t get why i do all these things for me, him, “us”, and especially our friendship. but after sitting him down and talking it out with him.. trying to get him to understand where i’m coming from.. it made me realize and now he’s trying..
maybe you and your man should talk about it? but if he still don’t try… at least (you) don’t give up and keep trying… one of these days he’ll realize…
*hugs*
hope things get better soon…
admin
yeah, things are kinda improving, at least i think they are.
I think with u and Rick, he knows that he still wants you, but he’s forcing himself to be away from u, so sooner or later, you will end up together again. That’s what I think. so sweetie, don’t worry, I think he’ll come back to you.
thanks