Emotional Rollercoaster
Lately my life has been an emotional rollercoaster. Things are turning from positive to negative. He is pushing me further and further away. He still loves me, but I don’t know what’s going to Finally happen. I’m so stressed out. I found myself wearing a mask more and more. There are so many things I’m just tired of dealing with, but I have to keep dealing with them. Sometimes I just want to say, fuck it. Fuck everything, fuck life, fuck love, fuck everybody that’s got a problem w/ me. You know, you only can take so much, and when you’re pushed to the limit, it’s likely that you’ll explode. I am very very close to that limit. I’m just ready to explode.
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Today is my mom’s 51th birthday, Happy Birthday mom!
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4 Comments
k1d
just be careless :/ i learned to live like that.
admin
so many times I’ve tried to be careless, but i just can’t get over this part of my heart that loves him so much! sometimes im so angry at myself for being so weak.
sexplicit
keep your head up (i always say that to you, but it’s good advice). anyway, i heard from somewhere that God only gives you what He knows you can handle in life. so i know you can make it through this! i’ll be here if you need to talk or vent or whatever 🙂 feel better and happy bday to your mom. take care. -alyssa
admin
yeah alyssa, i heard that too, but sometimes the devil just keeps attacking you, draining every inch of you. i don’t know what to do. i guess i’ll just wait and let time decide my fate.