Everything is getting a little better. I guess things have to improve slowly.

This week is my spring break, yet I have to work. I have never had a real spring break where I just relax and have fun. Ever since middle school, I was either at home bored, sleep, or I’m working everyday. I just feel like my life is so busy, no time for fun. Maybe I’ll be able to enjoy life after I retire. I’ve just been really depressed lately. I feel so alone, so empty. But I have to be strong to keep going. I just wish that he could give me more support.

*btw, that Rebirth CD is really good. I don’t care what the media say about it. I love that song “He’ll Be Back” and “This is Me”. I like whole CD too

***Edit
Just as I thought everything is getting better, something bad happens. Yesterday morning, one of the professors/founder of the department that I work in has passed away. I have worked around him for almost four years. Today, my mom’s boyfriend’s mom just passed away. Even though I don’t know her that well, but I have spent sometimes w/ her during the holidays, and she was a really nice person. It’s not just about people dying, it’s about life. It’s too short, too sudden. This is not my first time encounter death. I know death too well. But when it comes to be other people that I know or care about, it’s too hurtful.