On My Mind…

I know it’s been a LONG time since I’ve updated, but maybe it’s time, so ya’ll read up 🙂

There have a few things on my mind, I’m just feeling pretty lost lately. I had to reach to my past to find out. There are so many things I realize that I miss in my past and I wish I still have. But I made my life the way it is so that I could forget about the past. I know it’s stupid, because you really can’t force yourself to forget the past. No matter how hard I try, it’s finally catching up to me now. I really needed that intellectual stimulation to inspire me to write again, somehow I can only find in my past. I don’t know what I need or what I want, but I know where it is. It’s draining my spirit emotionally so much, I really have a hard time to comprehend. I just want things to be normal, I don’t want things to be more difficult than it already is.

I’m having so many financial problems lately, unable to find another job, unable to get things right, and it’s just getting harder and harder. I really wish I had made a better choice in the beginning (damn those credit cards). Well, at least I’m doing debt consolidation, so hopefully, it will work out.

I pray that God will show me the way to my destiny.